What a Day Brings

For 3 mths I have been wondering what my life will look like starting September 2011. The teaching profession helps me define myself from September to June, but what next? After June, then what?

I was determined to use my imagination every day to see what sort of life I could concoct for my family. I kept pushing my mind to come up with something good. A good Canadian friend once said to me in regards to my son, "Without imagination, what else do we have?"

My imagination came up with some life options, none of which seemed viable.

Possible jobs in other countries, possible jobs in other states, living and working in different states, having a house in one country and living and working in another. Leaving a good pension and retirement (well, for now) for something "better."

In this state (of being), it is hard to care about anything. It is unhealthy. Bonds become looser, reputation becomes less important, relationships wane.

For a while I felt like the state of the union. What was next? The only thing I knew I should do was to work hard and have faith.

It became my mantra. Something that made no tangible sense, but I had to exercise. The sacrifice of paying rent equivalent to a mortgage was like a good spinning class. The payout was tremendous.

After all the spinning, September looks better than I ever could have imagined, but luckily the class is over for now.

I made a phone call to my husband on a Tuesday afternoon and was given a report: our friends offered to sell us a house in the town I want to live in at a price that we can afford.

Boy was I worried about all that faith practice not making a difference. How wrong I was.

I resolve to never doubt again.