Hope is Healthier

To have a room of my own will someday bring me joy.

I keep saying this to myself as if it might one day be true, but Easter weekend has slowed the ability to discover the truth in that statement.

I am not working with a realtor in my purchase of a first home, and I am not working with a lawyer, at least not my own. It seems like it would be easier having less people involved and it seems to be so far, but it is so so slow and there are never solid answers in the weird world of home purchasing.

I have not figured out yet whether there are no solid answers because "the customer is always right" or whether there are no solid answers because there just aren't and "processing" just takes time.

I have to believe people are working and that things are moving.

Otherwise I will make myself crazy negative in the brain. I don't like feeling that way.

I guess in the end a house will be purchased and since the people helping to buy and sell the house are not the actual ones who are buying and selling it, they don't seem to mind the wait.

A day here, a day there - no biggie.

So Wednesday was pushed to Friday because of paperwork on my end and then Friday was pushed to Monday...maybe Monday, maybe Tuesday because banks and offices were not in full functioning form this past weekend. It just doesn't seem right.

Week after week it seems like the sale date is going to be so close and then another weekend pops up. Maybe this week? I am hopeful.

I am hopeful that the lawyer will have time in her schedule. That the broker will hear back from the bank and be able to finalize the paperwork for the closing. I am hopeful there will be ink in the printer. I am hopeful that I will be able to take off from work and still manage to get to my bank and the lawyer's office without missing too many hours with my students. I am hopeful that there will be gas in my car at the right time.

I am hopeful that our friends who sold us the house will still be our friends after they sell us the house. I am hopeful that staying was the right choice. I am hopeful that we bought the right place.

This is more serious than any wedding or child I could have ever had.

I am hopeful because I know that time will pass and things will happen whether I am hopeful or dreadful. I choose hope.